I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] with her ex-boyfriend Tom and I stayed until she left. I was cheated on over and over again by [ Name Redacted ], I walked away. She was a rebound from [ Name Redacted ]. I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] for pills and I stayed. My loyalty, faithfulness and devotion have caused me great pain and anguish, so when I was self-destructing I attempted to destroy what had hurt me so much in my lifetime and when it came down to it, I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t and didn’t do it. I wouldn’t do it. It was not my penis that had hurt me so much, it was others, not mine. That’s why you wood chipper analogy is off base and incorrect. I have been cheated on and know how badly it sucks and stinks. I know. I couldn’t do it, even as tucked up as I was and hell bent on self-destructing and destroying myself.

I never, not once, not ever, never. None of this matters, as, I fear and am afraid of you and your temper. But truth is truth and not your distorted view of it. I never, not once, not ever, never.